Anyone that knows me, knows that I love my sleep. I love my bed with it’s comfy mattress and special cuddley blankets. I love to get a good night’s sleep. But lately, I am not sleeping well. I go to bed, I am tired. Sometimes I read a bit to slow down and then I try to sleep. But my brain will not shut off. It keeps whirring, and twisting, and turning, and (mostly) worrying. It is not good, because then when it’s time to wake up, I am tired and grumpy and short-tempered. I believe most of the members of the house are suffering. It’s pretty annoying. And I have no idea how to stop it. Or change the behavior. I try to “shut off,” I tell J things and I tell him, now you can worry about it for me. Still I persist. And I think and I think again. It’s also not limited to going to bed. If I get up in the night, when I lay back down to go to sleep, my brain is “on” again and I feel like I am again fighting to go (back) to sleep. I wish I knew what to do. I know I’ve had a ton of changes this last year and I know it has something to do with all of that, but I just want it to get better so I can go back to being me – the well-rested, not grouchy version of me.
I completely understand. This has been a daily occurance for me since the college days. I often wonder if it is because I have a lot going on and don’t get it managed like I want to. I have noticed though that with exercise I tend to do better with sleeping and not over thinking anything. Not sure if you have time to work that in right now, but outside of Ambien, it’s been the only thing to help me get a good nights rest.
Most days though I only operate on 6 or so hours. Any more than that and I feel sluggish. Hope it gets better soon my friend.
That is a horrible feeling – waking up in the middle of the night, feeling the weight of all the tasks you need to accomplish & can’t at that moment.
Feeling tired & not resting is not a good cycle. :(
