I’ve been struggling – I know – again – lately. It seems like I feel like I get my head above water, doing more than just getting by, and something happens and I am down again. Most times it’s things that I can’t or don’t talk about on here, but these things have me worried and not sleeping and worrying some more. It’s not all that fun, honestly.

I want to appreciate the summer.

I want to get out more.

I want to stop being so angry.

I feel like the summer is rushing by and I have not done the things I wanted to do – get out on more walks, run more, go to the pool with the kids more, go to the park more.

And I know I should not let this stuff get me down or worry about it. I know in the big scheme of things these people are angry and my life is actually going OK. My niece seems to be more settled in, my boys are my joy, and my husband is so very patient and understanding of me. I just still feel stuck.