For a long time I have edited what I write here, mostly focusing on the good stuff, the easy stuff, the general, let’s make sure I remember that kind of stuff. I am kind of tired of it. My life is not always all roses and wonderful. I have some hard moments, some hard times and I’d like to be able to write about it here. Mostly so I can a) get it off my chest and b) get some feedback from other people, of the hey I’ve been there variety and here is what we did. The more I thought about this, the more I realized that I do this is real life – to my friends – too. I gloss over the hard stuff and focus on the isn’t life grand and easy stuff.

Until recently.

I was finally able to open up to some friends about how hard I find my mornings to be now that I am trying to get out of the house with 2 kids. I know I don’t always do things the best or easiest possible ways, but sometimes it takes an outsider to say, why in the hell???? It also felt good to finally say, Hey guys, I find this hard. Not to scare them or to make them not want to have more kids (because I hope they still do!), but to finally be able to ask for help and not worry about being judged. So what have I learned in 2008 so far that I want to remember – asking for help is not a sign of weakness, it is Ok to say to your “village” this is hard, more than likely they understand more than you think.

And hope they know that this is your way of thanking them. I do hope they know how much it means to me.